No Reasons

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I feel that my silence is the most dangerous thing. At least to me.

Just when I'm all settled down to prep myself typing a long blog. Some thing about throwing my Chinese away should I go overseas and study crops up. I know I'd made a promise to myself not to use (too much) vulgarities when I enter NS. But... here goes. F*** IT M*** F*** Z*** B*** BLOODY HELL P*** OF S*** P*** *** ABC-XYZ.

Seriously.

Now, after all that, I don't even know what I want to start with.

Damn it.

Fine. Something 'bout my current life then. First off, I'm busy like hell now with NS. As in, when I'm in camp. Of course, I still get to get home and all. But when I'm in camp, it's really. Busy. Say no yo work after I'd got home.

Oh, and I'm planning to start exercising now. Exercising excessively that is. At least I hope I have the time and commitment to. Hmph. So, who ever wants to join me, I'm cool with it.

Recently, am getting out with my cousins too. It's not a frequent occurrence, but, it just somehow happened. I know labeling it as "nice" is sort of plain & simple. But that's just it. At least on the surface. There's something more to it. Yea. So, the outings with them were really nice.

Nowadays, I'm seeing less & less of the Muggers already. More of Midnight gang actually. Now. Really.

My head's just a muddle of thoughts right now. Pardon me if things get incoherent here.

Oh, something important. Does anyone out there knows how to set up a router properly? 'Cos I have one, but it ain't working properly. SO, only one computer is connected to the Internet. Thus, my computer does not have any Internet connection at all. Please people. I'm desperate. I've been living for more than a month now without an Internet connection on my computer. IT'S. KILLING. ME.

And that also explains why I've yet to upload any photos nowadays. Sorry guys. But, I'm too lazy to do that on this computer.

Suddenly, I just want to watch some... Never mind. It's not me at all if I'd say it out anyway.

Oh, oh. Got an idea what I'd want to be like when I get to Uni. Thought of it when I was out with my bro to his school. And that's... To appear like a total idiot. A klutz. A geek, nerd, silly, whatever. But actually, someone who really know his stuff. Now, that's just a dream. Hah. I'll never be able to pull it off.

That should be all for now.

I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today

I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today

Open me up and you will see
I'm a gallery of broken hearts
I'm beyond repair, let me be
And give me back my broken parts

I just want to know today, know today, know today
I just want to know something today
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe I will be ok

Open me up and you will see
I'm a gallery of broken hearts
I'm beyond repair, let me be
And give me back my broken parts

Just give me back my pieces
Just give them back to me please
Just give me back my pieces
And let me hold my broken parts

I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today

I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe I will be ok
Know that maybe I will be ok
Know that maybe I will be ok