With a heavy heart...

Leaving for Perth extremely soon.

This is pretty much the longest time I'd spent since venturing there. 3 months. And I doubt there will be another time when I'll be back for so long. This 3 months had its ups & downs, and well, certainly eventful I say.

The past few days, caught up with some depressing & worrying matters. Important matters. But it's all settled now, so that's alright. Nevertheless, it's still depressing.

I'll do updates on my days in Singapore at a later time.

And thanks to all my friends & cousins who drew out time to meet up with me.

And now, I have to get ready to say goodbye to Singapore. It seems that, with the passing of each year, the weight of my shoulders gets heavier & heavier. And with this farewell this year, my heart just sank, like the Titanic. Unexplainable thoughts and feelings.

Ashes.

Well, turns out I've attained zen mode during these few days. Despite knowing that such an occurrence is unavoidable, I was still pretty much annoyed & irritated by the fact that it had to happen now. But it's alright, managed to get some form of documentation during the process.

And it's just a few days more to head back to Perth. I'm going to miss Singapore & the friends quite badly this time round I think. Not good. And well, there's still the matter of...

Sigh...

Forever alone.

Epitome of forever alone. Plans cancelled three days in a row.

Sigh...

Meeeeeh...

It's official.

It was really nice while it lasted. But as with all things, there must be an end to it.

Went for frisbee with the cousins yesterday early in the morning, namely Edna, Edrea, Andrea, Victoria and Victor. And damn was it early. Imagine, 0900hours at Paya Lebar. If it weren't for the circle line, I think I would need to wake up at 0630hours as opposed to 0730hrs.

It was fun while it lasted. But tiring. Hahaha. And I majorly accidentally threw the frisbee into Edrea's face-jaw. Major oops.

After that, headed over to the Vics'. Played Modern Warfare 3 there. Completed the whole game in approximately 4 to 5 hours time. That had to be one of my more crazy game-rushing moments ever.

And then there was the gymnast gathering the day before. A number of familiar faces were seen. But there were more unfamiliar/vaguely familiar faces than any. Still, good times, good times.

Thinking if I should cut my hair short now or not... Hmmm...

Oh wow! An encrypted post! How interesting... Hmmm...

But it's okay. For the happiness and the carefree, I'll take it in. Bring the pain, the sorrow, everything. I'll take it all. Withstand it all. And at the end, I'll still be there, smiling.

No pictures today.

One might think that things get simpler as one grows older. How untrue. I admit, I used to think that way. With more knowledge, life just gets more complex. But with that said, I like it. Adds color & drama to life.

It's into February already. How time flies. Complete my part time job. CNY passed. February.

Kind of glad that work is over now, as it means that I get to sleep in. On days such as this. Cloudy. Heavy rain. Greyish. Cooling weather. Ahh~ That's life.

With CNY, it was just like any other CNY. With the exception that the first day, we were kind of late. Actually, very late, such that one of the aunts were complaining about it. And that the second day, us cousins had headed out together till late night.

Nowadays, I'm just slacking around at home, waiting & arranging to meet up with friends. Am actually looking forward to Frisbee with the cousins this coming Sunday. Will be fun. Most of the time now, am just spending time at home, watching anime.

I can't help but feel that nowadays, my post are getting more & more incoherent. I guess blogging is really something that one needs to do constantly, to get everything straighten out.

Nowadays, I really do believe that ignorance is bliss. How I envy those little kids, running down the streets, making a ruckus, ignorant of the world & the people around them. How I envy that kids get to make 'wrong' choices with little consequences. At the most, a few detention sessions. It's not that I'm regretting anything, I'm not. Neither hoping that time could be turned back, don't believe in that crap. It's just that, sometimes, I wonder if the decisions I'd made in the past recent years were 'correct'. So many grey areas. So much unjustifiable reasons.

I'm still waiting, but I don't know how much longer I can wait. The trust is wavering & with each encounter, the disappointment grows...